My boyfriend wants to spank me

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I am a feminist, a freethinker and writer who openly discusses taboo subject matter that makes my parents blush. I have no shame. I am who I am, and I am proud of this person. Two years ago, however, I very nearly lost myself to abuse. As if I had fallen into social quicksand, I found myself suffocated by a violent, emotionally-damaging relationship. I mean, I did. I could hear my mother in the back of my head telling me this was the kind of guy I should marry; he was the kind of man who would take care of me. He just fell into my lap one night at a bar where my friend was promoting, so the vodka was free.

He was standing by the bar, talking with a client. He was tall and had big, rough hands. I was drunk and, therefore, very talkative. I dropped the cocktail he bought me and My boyfriend wants to spank me glass shattered all around my feet. He bought me another and I downed it. I gave him my. I was 21, and falling in love with him was easy.

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He felt safe. He seemed like someone I should consider for the long haul. I saw him this way very early on, as a forever kind of boyfriend My boyfriend wants to spank me, one day, husband. Peter was a man. He made me feel so mature and grown up. He was direct and forceful. Everything he did was full of intensity. He was in total control of our relationship. When everything started, I liked that about us.

He ordered for me at restaurants, made all the plans for our dates and, of course, he always picked up the bill. He was just busy, right? I saw myself introverting in a way that alarms me greatly now. I would just take all of the neglect and blame myself. I wanted it to work out so badly that the idea of it not working was completely indigestible. My best friend was completely freaked out. He would regularly comment on how manipulative and aggressive my boyfriend was.

Peter never showed any interest in getting to know my best friend. He wanted me to himself, isolated and unreachable. I just thought he was protective of the time he got to have me to himself. When he insisted upon spanking me, I was into that. I just thought he was being kinky. In retrospect, I should have recognized the line had been crossed when his spanking turned into a form of punishment for behavior he deemed unsavory.

If I spilled something, I got spanked.

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It was hard, angry spanking. I just sat there like an idiot and took it. I was conscious of the fact that it was all kinds of bizarre, but I convinced myself to push it into the back of my mind and consider it one of his quirks. He once did it over brunch at the Four Seasons, within earshot of the waitress and I nearly died of shame. I came into his apartment.

I finally had a key after five months of asking. I was exhausted after my internship that preceded a night class. I said no. He overpowered me. He easily had pounds on me. I had no control. I was left bleeding after it was over. For the first time in my life, I knew what it felt like to lose my agency completely. A part of me died that night.

I never wanted to have sex with him again. Every time we did, I fought it. I cried, I bled and another small part of me died. I internalized everything. I never acted sour or cross. I spilled everything. I thought he would kill my boyfriend. I snuck my things out of My boyfriend wants to spank me place over a few weeks.

I suppose I was afraid of what might happen if I tried to leave him and take my things with me. He was the kind of man who would burn everything. It hit me that I was in a relationship with the kind of guy who would burn everything. He deserved that much. He actually cried. I cried. I cried for the last 17 months that had been utterly wasted on someone who treated me like garbage. I cried for the person I thought I was who let myself be treated that way.

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Looking back, I realize I was in a relationship with a bonafide psychopath. I still feel ashamed of myself for not only getting into that situation but also for staying in it for as long as I did. At the same time, I appreciate the experience because it changed me in ways I can barely put into words. It forced me to reevaluate every facet of my life and rethink what was important to me. It was through my abusive relationship, I found my long lost voice as a writer and finally gained the confidence to be happy on my own. The next time I fall in love, I know it will be a love that is worthy of me.

If you or someone you know is a victim of abuse, please do not hesitate to get the help and safety you need. Things, however, started to change after three months of bliss. Somehow, My boyfriend wants to spank me had started to become bigger while I grew smaller. I stayed even when I knew it was time to walk away. After a year and a half, I had to end it. You are not alone and, most importantly, you do not deserve this.

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